The point about the church spire is that I take a moment every day on waking to glance at it to see whether the birds are there. It is a flock of ... something - gulls? swallows?- with feathers white on top darker underneath, that wheels and races in unrepeatable patterns around and underneath the spire, for sessions lasting usually fifteen minutes, sometimes as much as half an hour. I try to count the birds and settle, uneasily, at eleven, twelve, or thirteen. They dive, figure-eight, the flock's density bunching and stretching as it turns. They shoot left of the spire, tilting, seeming about to abandon the landmark, then abruptly turn, white tops flipping to gray undersides as if at a cursor's clicking, and recover their orbit. Sometimes, rarely, a sole bird turns the wrong way, parts from the group, and has to wheel in a phantom operation until it is swept up again in the flock. It is terribly easy to blink or look away and miss their unceremonious finishing, for whatever reason it is that they finish. They merely tilt and are gone from the spire, and from the slice of sky.
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On some days, while I'm watching the flock loop at the spire, a passing airplane putters at high layers past the top of my window frame, leaving a faint contrail. (This happened to be the case on that first morning after Emil Junrow's funeral, when Oona Laszlo crept from my bed and left me sleeping there.) A planeload of people on their way to somewhere from somewhere else, having little to do with birds or tower as birds or tower have to do with each other. I was the only witness to the conjunction. The privilege of my witnessing is limited to that fact: there is nothing more I grasp. I suppose if, somewhere in the stratosphere beyond, Janice Trumbull's irretrievable space station could be seen in its orbit, it would have again as little awareness of or relation to airplane, birds, and tower as airplane birds and tower have to one another. Or, if relation exists, I don't fathom it.
Jonathan Lethem - Chronic City
